.christmas.

christmas is just round the corner. i am in the lazy mood. i refuse to do anything. i didnt do any xmas shopping although i bought a choco brown bag at charles and keith for myself a few days ago. there is no christmas atmosphere at my house which isnt surprising because my family does not celebrate christmas at all. we used to have a christmas tree at the living room and i loved to decorate it every year. slowly, the christmas tree is pushed to the storeroom and it never has the chance to see the light again. hai...

i have been busy looking for a job for the past 2 days. my legs are aching. imagine yourself walking all over singapore in heels. oh my!!! please save me. anyway, i finally got a job. thanks to zhihui! and also thanks to jf for accompanying me for the past 2 days. i had a sense of relief when i was hired. but now, i dont feel any excitement or joy brewing in me. it's sad. i dont know what is wrong.

i have a lot of plans coming up next. i cannot sit still for a moment. i am going to learn driving soon, most probably in feb or march next year. anyone is interested to learn driving with me? i wanted to take a 3rd language course. i discussed with my dad. what's the outcome? the idea is put on hold, wait till i enter the working society. my guitar course too! wait till i have saved enough. but i hope to join the course before i attend uni. please please... let that be my first christmas wish.

i am starting to lose hope in everything after hearing experiences from people and witnessing events around me. let me keep this faith. without hope, everything in the world is dull and plain. i need hope to keep myself living and moving. i am just glad i am there for my friends. i am not really a good listener because i dont have much patience. i am more than willing to help them to make their day. listen and not make any comments is fine with me. i just want them to stay happy always.

"faith"